[Logan] Better Together

[Blake Emma Renner]

Blake placed the orange juice on the tray and puffed out her cheeks nervously. She’d been kind of a major bitch lately,.. in a huge way and she knew that Logan wasn’t exactly beyond thrilled in their relationship right now. It was wrong to start a fight with Scarlet, especially since she was so important in Logan’s life. Even though Blake hated that Scarlet was so important in his life, she was. And that was just something she’d have to accept. Thankfully, he came home last night but they were both so tired they hadn’t really talked about it. But they never could stay mad at each other long. It seemed like things blew up, but as soon as they saw each other again, hugged each other, it was okay. Blake picked up the tray and headed upstairs. She’d made him banana pancakes, and if that wasn’t good enough she also made him cinnamon apple pancakes, hash browns, bacon, sausage, and a side dish of fruit. Blake stepped into their room quietly before she sat the tray down and stood near his side of the bed.

Blake climbed back under the covers before she curled up to his side and squeezed him tightly, trying to hug him into a state of being awake and alert. She sat up on the bed a little and poked his nose before she pulled her hand back quickly. After Logan stirred a bit and woke up she sat on her knees, sitting back against her feet as she looked at him sheepishly.”I’m really sorry,” she said quietly. One, because Blake hardly ever apologized. For anything, so it was kind of hard to just start off by saying that. And two, because it was early yet and he’d just woken up so she didn’t want to startle him. ’And not just for last night, but for a while. I haven’t been acting myself,” she said, rubbing her hand against her arm nervously before she took in a deep breath. ”I made you pancakes… and hashbrowns. And bacon and sausage. With fruit… and orange juice..” she said before she pointed to the nightstand where his food was.

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[Logan Chase Renner]

Logan woke up, feeling Blake's arms around him and felt her sit back. He rolled over, rubbing his eyes and looked at her tentatively as she apologized. Blake hardly ever apologized for anything unless she had really screwed up and she knew it. And Logan was pretty good with taking what she could dish out, it wasn't like he didn't know what he was dealing with he married her. But the fact that she was taking the time to say anything at all was kind of a big deal. Plus, she'd been really difficult to deal with lately and even though Logan was probably the best person in the world at dealing with her, sometimes she just pushed him too far. Especially lately. After she'd finished saying what she had to say, Logan looked at her and then looked at the tray of food, "I hope you're gonna help me eat all that." He said calmly. He sighed, rubbing his eyes, and sat up, looking at her. "It's okay, In mean. People have off days. But it just seems like everyday is an off day and I can't spend every second I'm with you on edge because I'm scared if I say one wrong thing, you're gonna get pissed and its off to the couch for me. And I know it doesn't make sense to you, but yeah. It does make me mad when you pick fights with people I'm friends with, especially Scarlet. She's one of my really good friends, I need you to just accept it." Logan softened, feeling bad already that he'd even said anything, knowing he was probably either making her feel bad or pissing her off. He didn't know which was worse. He scooted closer, taking her hand, "Me and Scarlet were close for a really long time, but that was in high school. Yeah I love her to death, I always will. But I don't love her the way I love you, it's completely different. I'm telling you, you have nothing to worry about there, I just wish you'd believe me. I put it in the past, I moved on. I only see her as a friend. What else can I say to you to make you see I'll never want anyone else but you? Why don't you see that?"

Logan was in no way trying to be harsh with her, and he felt bad that he had to sit here and have this conversation with her. It just seemed like the longer he and Blake were together, the more possessive she'd gotten over him, the more insecure about their relationship she was. It was like she was always worried he'd pick someone else, and it just made her on edge all the time. Getting upset at really stupid little things, blowing up at people for no reason. There were some days, and Logan would never admit it, but there were days when he was relieved to get to his office just to have time to relax with out worrying all the time if what he was going to say was the wrong thing. He loved Blake, more then any other person in his life. It was like words were never enough. Geez, hadn't he been int his situation with her before? Where nothing he did was ever enough and he always seemed to get stuck in this place of not being able to do anything to make her believe how he felt was real. She was always doubting his feelings for her, and it was tiring for him. And it diminished his feelings. He could love her more then any other person could ever love another person and it wouldn't mean anything if she didn't believe it. It kind of made him think nothing he did was enough. It was exhausting. He would absolutely not have married her if he wasn't in love with her, but getting that through her head was harder then he had imagined.

[Blake Emma Renner]

Blake watched Logan carefully as he woke up and noticed the food. It wouldn’t fix everything,but atleast it would put him in a good mood as he woke up.When he started to speak, Blake knew that he had every right to get it off of his chest, which is why she didn’t say anything and instead just looked down at her hands as she frowned and bit the inside of her cheek so she wouldn’t say anything. She didn’t want to explain to him that of course he was going to fall for someone else; because there was no way someone as amazing as him would love her,and that all of her relationships in the past had led from people really caring about her to just being over it. She didn’t want to explain that it was really hard to start gaining weight, and then have Scarlet being there just the same as she was from high school,and obviously he had found that attractive before. She hadn’t been in the studio in a while, so she hadn’t been able to try and impress him with music the way she tried to impress him before; literally everything about her was changing and it terrified her that he would notice there was no music, there she was gaining weight. It was easy for him to sit there and say those things about Scarlet, but she had said all of those things to Taylor about Logan.
Blake opened her mouth to say something but instead closed it quickly and nodded. There wasn’t any need in dragging this out by saying how she felt,or whether or not she agreed or disagreed with him. “You’re right,” she said instead, caring more about him feeling listened to and understood than trying to make her own points.”I’m not hungry,” she said, quietly again she gestured to his tray of food. ”So um..” she said as she stood off of the bed,” I was thinking about the tour,” she said as she made her way to her vanity and sat down, staring blankly at the different brushes and makeup accessories before she looked back at him and smiled. “ I think that I’m actually going to go into the office today and work on a few things. And tell Joel that he needs to quit coming into my studio,”she said, before she smiled back at Logan and dropped her hands in her lap. She opened her mouth again, to thank him for listening to her, but instead she just smiled. Loving her might have been a handful, but Logan came with his own price too.

[Logan Chase Renner]

Logan looked at Blake suspiciously. She was a horrible liar, at least she was when she was lying to him. Now he was just getting frustrated with her. The way she brushed things off like they had taken care of it was kind of causing them more problems. Here she had been in the wrong, and she apologized, but she didn't even give him her time to talk about it and he almost felt like her apology wasn't all that heartfelt. Like okay, you said one word, you think that's gonna fix it? And here Logan was, giving her his time and being completely honest with her, telling her how he felt about it and all that, and she wasn't even wasting her time, like she didn't think he was worth her time. She wasn't being honest with him, she was not telling him what she was thinking and she was making it a hell of a lot harder to understand whatever the hell she was going through. If she couldn't communicate with him and take time to work things out with him instead of dismissing them like this as if his feelings were unimportant, they were going to have a problem. "No, I don't think so. I'm going to stay home until you're honest with me and tell me what your deal is because we're not done. I am sitting here giving you my time, I think I deserve some of your time."

"Blake really, can you stop for one second and talk to me. I don't want to talk about the tour, I don't want to talk about the studio, I'm talking about our marriage, you're really not gonna be honest with me and tell me whats going on with you?" Logan was just tired, and he'd only just woken up. He was just tired of trying to to get her to simply talk to him, it was like pulling teeth. They used to tell each other everything, now he never knew what she was thinking.

[Blake Emma Renner]

Blake looked at Logan and let out a sigh. She knew it was stupid to hold stress over him, plus just because she didn’t talk about it didn’t mean that it just disappeared and there was no sense in having both of them stress out when they were supposed to be there to support each other. “ It’s just.. we’re having a little girl. What if we can’t take care of her?” she turned in her chair to face him. “ I do want to talk about the tour, because I need it to be successful. What if people quit listening to my music? What if the label goes under? How are we supposed to take care of her? What are we supposed to do then?” she bit the inside of her cheek as she looked back at him and gave an apologetic face.”We’re doing this really big thing, and I don’t want you to hitch your trailer to a deadbeat wagon and it just go south…”

“ Plus I’m trying not to stress out about it, because well.. we know what happened last time I was pregnant and stressed and I really don’t want to do that to you. You’re my everything” she shrugged her shoulders slightly. “ I’d rather be a stressed out crazy bitch than a broke… horrible mother, or someone who caused you to lose the baby”. Blake stood up and walked over to him, wrapping her arms around his lower back. ” …. You didn’t fall in love with me because I’m sane,” she said as she placed her cheek against his chest. “ I was just really good at sex. And it bit me in the ass” she said jokingly. She had to practically molest Logan for months before he had finally slept with her.But it was better that way, it made her know that he respected her a lot more than the other girls he had slept with.

[Logan Chase Renner]

Logan watched her, finally getting a response out of her, which was helpful because at least she was letting him see a little bit of what she was afraid of, what she was thinking. He could understand why she'd be scared about that, losing the baby and being a good parent, and her fans not liking her anymore. Logan just shook his head, "Blake, that's not going to happen. We'll take care of her just fine, I'm not worried." Logan was just glad she was actually saying what it was that was upsetting her. They usually never had a problem communicating and he didn't know why is was a problem now but they seemed to be getting somewhere. Blake came over and sat down, wrapping her arms around him and Logan shook his head, "No, I fell in love with you because you're perfect and I'm incapable of loving anyone else. Now help me eat all this," he grinned, pulling the tray over and picked up a strawberry, holding it in front of her, "Aren't you going to stay and eat breakfast with me?" Logan asked her quietly, leaned over to kiss her neck. He knew she was set and determined to get some studio time today, and he had a lot of paperwork to sort through before he got in the studio with Joel. Some days he knew he wasn't really going to see her until they both got home at the end of the day. They were both just busy. It kind of made him think he was going to have to figure out a way to clear his schedule when the baby got there. He didn't want to resort to having a nanny or an au pair, he thought he and Blake were completely capable of having a child, they just needed to realize that babies needed a lot of their time, that was all.

[Blake Emma Renner]

Blake lifted her head from Logan’s chest as he spoke, saying that he wasn’t worried about whether or not they were capable of raising a child. She reluctantly smiled and shook her head at him. She could be on a Godzilla rampage, and he was the only thing that ever made her see light. She watched him as he brought the tray over towards them and went for the strawberries. Everything he did was so damn adorable, even the way he asked her if she was going to stay and have breakfast with him. She sighed, thinking of all of the work she needed to get done. But then he came for her ultimate weakness. Blake closed her eyes as he kissed her neck and turned to him slowly with a smile.

Blake narrowed her eyes at him and shook her head before she leaned in to kiss him, slightly pushing the tray away from the both of them. She pulled her lips away only enough to be able to talk, “Seriously though, Renner.. People won’t love me forever. You might be my biggest fan, but you can’t be my only one”she said before she kissed him again. She placed her hands over the side of his jaw and pulled herself closer to him. “ And… what if we just end up disappointing her all of the time. Or embarrassing her.. what if she is embarrassed to have famous parents. And aunt and uncles” Blake moved closer to him carefully. She may have been tiny but she felt huge and didn’t want to break his legs. She lowered her hands to the soft skin of his chest as she sat over his legs. “ And you’re going to make me..really…really late at the studio. You know how the boss hates that” she said before she nibbled against his bottom lip and wrapped her arms back around him.

[Logan Chase Renner]

Logan shrugged, smiling, "That's not like, for years and years, why worry about it now." Logan was her producer at the end of the day too, he wasn't gonna sit by and let her career go down the drain, not going to happen. But Logan just laughed, "Aren't parents supposed to be some what embarrassing, like as a given? I thought it was some inescapable thing." Logan doubted that their daughter would be embarrassed by them because of their fame, if anything she'd probably just make a lot of friends on the playground. Blake moved over him, placing her hands on his chest, saying that her boss might be upset if she went into work late today. Doubtful. Although, Logan did like the idea of her getting back in the studio and recording or working on stuff for tour, or whatever she felt like doing that was career oriented. Blake was such a career driven person, she needed to go to work in order to be happy in life, otherwise she'd probably go crazy. Logan understood that. He was driven when it came to his career too. But Logan was also a family oriented person first and foremost. "I don't think you're boss will mind... but. You're right. I really have to get into the office too."

[Blake Emma Renner]

Blake sat back as Logan said that he wanted to get into the office too. She blinked before she dropped her arms from around him. “ K . “ she said before she sat up from the bed. She stole a strawberry from the tray before she went into the bathroom and shut the door with her foot. She knew he had her best interest at heart, getting to work,so she couldn’t really be mad at him.But she was really frustrated, in more ways than one.She threw the end of the strawberry into the trashcan before she headed into the walk in closet to get ready. She pulled on a pair of jeans, which she hardly ever wore really and then hopped into a pair of cowboy boots. Blake yawned as she picked through her clothes and took down a shirt, muttering to herself the entire time about how if he wanted their relationship to be their work relationship today then fine. But then also muttering to herself that this was for the best and he was just being a good producer. Which made him a good husband. Maybe she was going crazy.

Blake shook her hair out quickly with her fingers before she came back out to the bedroom. “ I was going to make you a snack and lunch for the day. But apparently I have to get to work.”. She placed her hands on his knees before she leaned down to kiss him again. She leaned away and waved her fingers at him before she headed downstairs. She was almost out the door when she remembered the snack she had put together for Ryan and Shane the night before. They were getting smores.. and she was pretty excited to bring it to them. She ran back into the kitchen quickly to get everything together.