[Faith] Hey Girl...Let Me Talk To You

[Joel Carter Foster]

Dated for June 25, 2012

Joel looked in the mirror stretched across the entirety of the wall as he felt the sweat dripping off of his forehead and down the side of his face. How long had he been in dance rehearsal? Most of his energy was drained from the fact that he had taken a break and goofed around with Justin playing some basketball outside in the court of the hotel. He looked down, shaking his head as he stepped away with his hands on his hips. After a few feet he stopped, leaning forward as he placed his hands on his knees and tried to catch his breath. ‘ What’s up man?’ Justin asked from across the dance studio, shutting the music off. ‘ You alright? Let’s take a break’ he said, standing off of his stool. Joel shook his head, standing up and shaking his hand at Justin. “ No, no.. it’s fine. Take it from the top”. Justin looked at Joel, making a pained expression. “ Kid.. dance rehearsal ended four hours ago. It’s 1:30 in the morning. You’ve got an interview in the morning..with a performance.. and then a show tomorrow night. Can we please…” he said, looking at him. ‘ Renner is gonna kill me’ and Joel made a face, looking up. “ Renner’s gonna be pissed because I’m rehearsing? Get real, man” he said before he walked back to the center of the studio. “ Come on.. just one more time. Ever since I.. woke up, this coma thing I just..” he said, shaking his head as he licked his lips. “ Come on, I can do more. I can do better. I can give more,” he said, with a slight nod, talking more to himself than he was to Justin. He heard an audible sigh from Justin followed by his signature ‘ aw c’mon!’ before the music started again.

As Joel danced this time he couldn’t help but listen to his own lyrics, about finding love and wanting to hold onto it, what he had found with Tori. He stopped, walking away in the middle of a dance routine and started to make his way out of the studio. The music stopped quickly and he heard Justin running to catch up with him. ‘ We done man? Really? Time for bed” he said excitedly before Joel looked down the hallways. “ Where do you think the kitchen is?” he asked and Justin made a face, “ You hungry man?” Joel shook his head, “ No I gotta go talk to Faith,” he said, pulling his jeans up at the side before he went down the right to try and find it. Girls liked ice cream right? If he was waking her up at almost 2 in the morning he wasn’t showing his ass up empty handed. At least.. he thought he knew what girls liked. He hated being away from Tori. He literally had different things sent to her every day that he didn’t get to see her. Roses, candy, purses, jewelry, everything. Anything he thought she deserved, but UPS didn’t really have a box that you could fit the world into. “ Oh okay. That sounds good. International pop star is going to my girlfriends hotel room at two in the morning. All sweaty. Out of breath. Licking his lips like he is staring at a steak. I ain’t worried..” Justin said sarcastically, looking at Joel with a ‘wtf’ expression. Joel nodded, clapping Justin on the shoulder. “ Glad you understand,” he said before heading into the kitchen. What kind of ice cream did girls like? Chocolate. Right? Most girls loved chocolate. He talked them into letting him have one of the giant clear tubs of it, grabbing two giant serving spoons instead of regular ones before he held it by the handle and made his way towards her hotel room. Joel brought his hand up to the door, tapping his knuckle against it roughly to try and wake her up. “..Faith, it’s Joel… Joel Foster,” he said, even cringing at himself that time for how strongly his South African accent came through.

[Faith Olivia Drake]

This life was a dream to Faith. Joel was flying her out everywhere to see Justin. It seemed like he was going out of his way for her and him. Faith knew Joel, but they weren't really all that close for her to feel like she wasn't being a burden to him. She tried to stay out of the way whenever Justin had things to do with Joel. She'd go out on her own or just read in the hotel room or by the pool if they had one. Faith was so thankful for everything Joel was doing for her and Justin. Justin was the best thing that could have happened to Faith. She loved him, crazy because they met only a little while ago, but she did. She knew it was love. Faith had never felt this way about anyone before. Justin meant so much to her and it meant so much to her that Joel was doing this for her and him. She wanted a way to repay him, but she didn't know how. What do you give someone that already has everything? Faith had no idea what she could do for him, if she could even do anything for him. If it wasn't for him, she wouldn't even know Justin. He's the one that introduced them to one another at Dani's party. Joel was always making sure that his friends were happy, did he ever stop to think of himself?

Faith took a sip of her latte as she looked out into Dallas night. The night temperature had cooled down and Faith decided to read out on the balcony until Justin was finished with what he had to do. It was so peaceful out here. So much better than sitting on a balcony in New York at this time of night. She didn't even know what time it was. Faith had been so caught up in her book that she didn't even realize how much time had actually gone by since she had been out there. Faith smiled to herself and then went back to reading. She pushed the glasses back up on her face as they slid down a bit, such a dork. Faith had never worn her glasses around anyone, she felt like such a tool with them. She definitely never wore them around Justin. Just as she finished up the chapter, she heard a knock at the door. Faith stood up as she heard Joel's voice. She smiled as she dropped the book on the bed and headed towards the door. Faith opened the door still smiling, "I know which Joel." she moved out of the way so he could come in, "Come on in." Faith saw the big tub and the spoons and wondered what he had in mind.


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[Joel Carter Foster]

Joel smiled as Faith opened the door and then held up the ice cream. “ I didn’t wake you, right?” he asked with a slight lift of his eyebrow. When she stepped to the side and offered to let him come in, he nodded graciously before stepping inside. Joel set the tub of ice cream down on the table nearest the door before placing the spoons on top of the lid. He turned to look at her, licking his lips as he tried to think of how to start off this conversation. Joel wasn’t really one for talking about any type of feelings in the first place ever. He was a nice guy, social, friendly, loved hanging out with people. But if someone sat down to list five things about him, what could they really say? He works hard. He goofs hard. Why? Because he didn’t open up about much to anyone. Stuff like that didn’t get noticed when you threw a smile on and were a social butterfly. “ I’m.. “ he started off but stopped himself, licking his lips again. “ Is it okay if I make myself comfortable?” he asked. Maybe if he felt more physically comfortable all of this would be easier. He started off by taking off his shoes, pushing them off to the corner with his foot before he reached his hand behind his back and clutched his fingers around the fabric. He adjusted his shoulder blades, twisting the muscles in his back as he lifted the shirt off over his head. With that he took in a deep breath and sighed, puffing out his cheeks before he picked up the ice cream and offered her a spoon. “ Don’t mind me being a fatty,” he said dryly as he sat down on the bed with his back against the headboard, digging the entirety of the serving spoon into the chocolate ice cream before he brought it to his lips.

Joel chewed on it for a bit, swallowing large chunks of the ice cream as he brought his hand up to his chest, scratching over the edge of his collar bone before he licked the melted chocolate away from the corner of his lips and turned to look at Faith. “ … Do you think someone not from this world is going to be able to exist in mine?” he asked finally, staring at her like she probably held all of the answers he had been searching for. “ Faith I… I love this girl. I barely know her, and I’m completely in love with her. I risked my life for her. I laid in a hospital bed for months for her.” he said before giving a small sigh. “ I would sacrifice…anything. Except for my work. How horrible is that?” he said, digging his spoon into the ice cream. “ Do you know what it’s like to have people scream at you that they love you,” he said as he stared down at his stomach, tapping his finger against his skin. “They don’t know me.. “ he said, licking his lips again. “ She looks at me like..I don’t even know how to explain it. It’s different. She doesn’t care about the ‘ Fever’ he said, giving a slight smirk. “What if I disappoint her.. What if I choose work over her too many times. Is it fair?” he asked, turning to look at her. Out of all of his friends she was probably the least experienced with fame, which was something he realized he was beginning to seek out in people. Especially in Tori. “ Is dating me, fair to her? She didn’t sign up for this..” he said, frowning slightly as he brought the chocolate ice cream back to his mouth.

[Faith Olivia Drake]

Faith smiled and let out a small laugh, "No, of course not. I was up reading." she closed the door and then remembered she still had her glasses on, Shit. She quickly took them off and placed on the side table Gosh she hated those things. She had hoped Joel didn't realize. She was praying he didn't. Faith turned back to him as he asked if she minded if he made himself more comfortable. "No, not at all. Do what you gotta do." She lifted and eyebrow as he began to take his shirt off. What? Faith looked at him for a moment and then shrugged it off. If that's how he needed to get comfortable, then so be it. Faith smiled and took the spoon, "Thanks and uh, I'll be the fat one here. You just watch." she smirked and followed behind him to the bed, sitting on the opposite side as him. Faith took a nite of ice cream and smiled to herself, it was delicious. "Mmmm.." she said as she opened her eyes again. She hadn't had good chocolate ice cream in forever. Faith made a face to herself and then moved so she was laying on her stomach, he feet bent up in the air behind her and her head resting on hand at the top of the bed. She took another spoonful and placed the cold, refreshing chocolate ice cream into her mouth. Delicious.

Faith looked up at Joel as he broke the silence. Wow, that wasn't expected. Faith was hit with a curve ball. She was just thinking about how she and Joel and her weren't really that close and here he was coming to her with this. "Of course.." she said quietly answering his question. He deserved to be happy and if someone from her lifestyle was it, then that's how it was going to be. Faith licked the rest of the ice cream off of the spoon and then took another scoop out of the tub, still listening to him. She looked back up at him as he spoke. Faith listened to his words carefully, she could hear his emotion in the tone of his voice. This was coming from down deep in Joel. This wasn't fun and games, this was serious. Faith put the ice cream in her mouth and tried to chew it as fast as she could without looking like an idiot, she wanted to talk and she didn't want to have a mouthful of ice cream when she did. Faith smirked when Joel mentioned the Fever. Yeah Faith had a small case of it, but what girl in their right mind didn't? Faith looked down at the spoon in her hands in front of her for a moment and then looked back to Joel. "It's not crazy, you loving her..not crazy at all. Love isn't about how long or how short you knew the person. When you love someone, it comes from down deep, you feel it and you just know. No one else can feel it, so they don't understand, but you know its there." Faith sat up, crossed her legs Indian style and looked at Joel. "Tori knows who and what you are. She knows Joel Foster the international pop star, but she also knows the real Joel Foster. The one away form the crowds and the stage and all the lights." Faith spun the spoon slowly in her hands. "She knows what she's getting herself into. She knows what comes with dating a celebrity. If she truly loves you and truly wants to be with you, she can look past all that and just see you." Faith put a little more ice cream on the spoon. "You work all the time, it takes you away from her. I'll tell you the truth, it sucks. Like big time sucks, like sucks donkey dick," she smirked lightly, "but you get through it because you love that person. I hate being away from Justin, I hate when his works takes him away from me. I'm so thankful for you and everything you do for us, but its hard when he's away from me. I know his work needs to come before me and I knew that before hand. I wouldn't change a thing about this relationship though because it's perfect, perfect in it's own little way." Faith put the ice cream in her mouth and put her hand on Joel's shoulder, "It's all goign to work out. You just need to believe it will." she moved her hand away and scooped some more ice cream.

[Joel Carter Foster]

Joel brought his tongue to the side of his mouth, scooping some of the ice cream back so he could swallow it as he listened to everything Faith said. Of course she was right, he just needed to hear someone say it. Well, not just someone. He needed to hear someone in a similar situation say it. Every one else in his position was dating someone else famous. Natalia had Ethan. Blake and Logan had each other. He took in a deep breath and sighed, bringing his hand up over his hair before he traced his hand back and forth. “ It scares the shit out of me how much I love this girl,” he said bluntly before he looked up at Faith. “ Honest to God I don’t even understand the hype. It’s insane to me the way girls are so.. possessive? I mean.. I love that they connect. I love that they are so devoted. I just really don’t want anyone to take any type of jealousy out on Tori, because I just don’t understand it. I don’t understand how they think they can love someone they don’t know. Especially me. I’m just a kid just trying to.. be something..” he said, bringing some more ice cream to his mouth. He made a slight face at feeling a chunk of chocolate before he picked up the lid to see that it was actually Godiva ice cream with bits of chocolate candy mixed into it. “ Faith, I don’t think I even know who I am half the time,” he said quietly as he brought his eyes back up to her and then sighed. “ This life is strange to me.. it’s scary. I asked for it and it still sent me bawling like a little bitch the first few times people came at me screaming. Now I’m just used to the screaming. I don’t understand it.. and I’m asking her to,” he said, laying his head back against the headboard before he turned it lazily to look at her.

Joel watched her as she sat on the bed eating ice cream. It was sort of ridiculous to Joel how much he sang about ‘swag’ and how much of a ladies man he sort of portrayed himself. He hit on almost all of his friends, and then when it came down to it he always walked away from it. Now here he was with a beautiful girl in her hotel room and he was acting like he was a Cher-loving cake boy. He was that way even long before Tori came along. Now he could say it was because he was in love, all along it’s been because he just never saw the appeal in himself that other people seemed to. He swallowed the ice cream in his mouth before running his tongue across his lips again and cleared his throat. “ You know he loves you, right?” he asked, tilting his head up to look at Faith. “ Not just.. let me call her my wifey, and tell her I love her because I think that’s what she wants to hear’ type of love.. but legitimately.. loves you” Joel said, lifting his head off of the headboard. “ He’s older… he’s at a place where he’s going to want to settle down with someone soon,” he mentioned, setting the spoon into the ice cream. “ …. If you keep a part of yourself from someone, is that the same thing as lying?” he asked again, making a pained expression before he looked back up at Faith.

[Faith Olivia Drake]

Faith couldn't really put herself in Joel's shoes because she had never been there before for herself. Yeah they were in a similar situation, but she was on the opposite end. She wasn't the one in the spotlight. She was the girlfriend to the swagger coach of Joel Foster. A nobody.She couldn't tell Joel what to do, because she didn't know what she herself would do. All she could do is tell him what she did know. Faith blinked and took a breath in as she listened to Joel. This meant a lot to her, him coming to her like this. This was something she could do for him, she would be here for him. It wasn't much, but it was what she could do for him. "I do have to admit, " she said with a small nod of her head, "that your fans are a little crazy. I don't mean to joke or anything, but they've got the fever bad. I just hope they don't get jealous of the girl you love. If they were true fans, they'd be happy you finally found someone. If you're happy, they should be happy. It'll take time for her to get use to because it's not her life, but she will come around." Faith gave Joel a reassuring smile. "Joel, I may have just met you a few months ago, but I feel I know you. You are a fun-loving, outgoing, smart, quirky, amazing, adorable guy that is doing what he loves for a living. You make people happy with what you love to do. " she smiled once more, "I know Tori will get it. You make her happy. It's not the life you live that does, its you."

Faith chewed the bits of ice cream she had in her mouth and took another bite. She looked at Joel who was looking at her and smiled. This was nice. Two friends having a heart to heart over ice cream. Faith smiled and looked away when she felt her cheeks get hot. She looked back at Joel when she figured she had her blushing under control. Faith bit her lip and looked at Joel as he talked about Justin wanting to settle down. She knew it, he was older than her., it was expected. "I love him. He makes me feel like a little schoolgirl. I have never felt this way about anyone, Joel. He makes me feel like somebody, like I matter. Nobody has ever made me feel that way. They've all wanted one thing from me..." Faith looked away and sighed, "and when I wouldn't give it to them, they would and never speak to me again. They'd make up horrible rumors about 'us' and the things we did. Did I deny them? No. I went along with it because people loved it. They loved somebody I wasn't. He loves me for me and it means the world to me." Faith put the spoon in the tub with Joel's and looked at him, "It's not necessarily lying, you're just not ready for them to know. When you feel comfortable enough with it, then you'll feel comfortable enough to tell them."

[Joel Carter Foster]

Joel looked up with a ‘ no shit’ expression, spoon in his mouth, as Faith said that his fans were a little crazy. He sat quietly though, listening as she explained how she felt about his and Tori’s relationship. He smiled slowly, hearing something that took so much weight off of his shoulders. Tori liked him , not his lifestyle. He nodded, hoping she was right before he looked back up at her. When she was done talking though, about everything, about him and Tori, about herself and Justin he held up his hand, shaking his head. “ First off.. you are somebody. So stop that shit right now,” he said before he tossed his spoon onto the lid for the ice cream and crossed his arms against his bare chest. “ So.. okay. I think I got a little lost. You never slept with these guys, but they said you did and you just let people think that?” he questioned, looking at her with a slightly confused expression. “ I mean I know you Drake girls had a reputation as a whole but I never heard anyone say a bad word about you… though Destiny kind of looks at me like I’m a piece of chocolate cake and she just got out of a weight watchers meeting,” he said uncomfortably. Joel shook his head, taking in a deep breath before he reached back and placed a pillow behind himself to make himself more comfortable. “ He does love you. He sees you as like.. this unattainable goddess or something, perched up on her balcony in some castle’ he said, smirking slightly as he let his arm hang over his stomach.

“ Do you mind if I ask what the hold up is then?” he said, looking up at her. “ You don’t even have to answer that.. it just seems.. you two are both so in love,” he said, giving a slight shrug of his shoulder. “ Not that I can talk. Tori and I haven’t slept together either,” he said before he looked back over at Faith. “ If you think sleeping with him is going to ruin what you two have, you’re completely wrong. The reason he isn’t pressuring you, is because he loves you. He looks at you and he sees the long run. He isn’t worried about what roads you guys take to get there, just that you do. He won’t stop looking at you like you’re an angel. If anything.. if you think you guys are close now.. just wait,” he said, shaking his head slightly. “ It will only get better.” he said honestly before he smiled back up at her, “ Honestly I’m surprised you haven’t gotten this kid down on one knee yet. If you could hear the way he talks about you.. he thinks you’re the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen. Inside and out.” he said , bending his right leg so that his foot propped up underneath his left knee.

[Faith Olivia Drake]

Faith scrunched her nose when Joel said she was somebody and to stop, "Yes sir." she said quietly with a smirk. "Yes, I know. It was stupid." she said as she picked up his spoon, put the cover back on and then put both of their spoons on the top, "My sisters were 'sluts' so why shouldn't I be one too? I could never bring myself to do anything though. It just never felt right." Faith ran her hands through her hair, "I know Destiny can come off strong, but she means well." she said with a smile." Destiny was hurt by a guy and it ruined her. She vowed to never let a guy hurt her like that again. She just shut her emotion off. Hope, i don't even know about her. She looks up to Destiny. And me, I looked up to both of them..that's how I got roped in." If she could do it all over, she would. She would be her own person and not what she thought people wanted from her. Faith smiled when Joel told her how Justin thought of her. He really was a sweetheart. Faith laid down, brought a pillow up to her chest and just looked up at the ceiling.

What was she waiting for? Nothing actually. She just didn't know how to go about asking him , well, telling him that she was ready. She had been ready for awhile. Faith felt the hotness in her cheeks and she knew she was blushing. She brought the pillow over her face and just giggled like a little schoolgirl. The thought of Justin down on one knew made her all warm and fuzzy inside. Faith brought the pillow away from her face, bent her knees up, still smiling from ear to ear, and looked at Joel. "Truthfully," she said with a sigh, "I don't know how to tell him or ask him, ya know? I get all awkward and nervous about it. Like I want to, soo bad, but I just don't know how to go about it. I can be all sexy and confident when I'm out and whatnot, but when it comes to the bedroom, ugh, total awkward dork." she said as she covered her face with the pillow again.